Blahhhhhhhhhhhhhh... So Monday night, I went to a concert in SLC... and came to a final conclusion: I'm dropping out of school and partying instead. I might even create a band and tour for a while... I like to travel, have always wanted to more of it, so why not??
Oh, the other thing I decided? A life of celabecy really isn't for me... Lol. I'm doing my best to be what I know I'm supposed to be... but I swear I'm slowly dying inside.
Couple more things that I discovered about myself, this past week:
1. Some day, I want to be the next Dr. Seuss.
2. I hate sleeping where I'm supposed to... I don't know if it's because I have a hard time following what others expect to be normal guidelines/expectations of behavior... but I just can't do it.
3. I'm female. 100%, without a doubt, all girl. And I'm cool with it. There's no reason to deny what I am... I think, from here on out, I'm going to embrace it to it's fullest. As contradictory as it might sound, I feel even more empowered than before, more different, maybe even more feminist. I. AM. WOMAN.
4. I miss having little kids around... I want a baby, just not one of my own.
5. I really have found "my type"... and even more than that, I've found that within that type, there are so many DIFFERENT types... It'll be interesting to see who I finally end up with? :)
6. If there was a way that I could, I'd have Liz Stanfield be my mother-in-law, no matter who I marry. She's got to be the closest thing to Christ that I've ever experienced, she's incredible. As a matter of fact, she's the kind of mother that I want to embody, someday.
7. There's a ticking sound, some where near by... and I think it's coming from inside, lol.
8. I've gave up on being self-conscious quite a while ago, and yet, for whatever reason, I still am too scared to attempt poetry. I shall start... this week? Ehhhh...
It's insane, inevitably dramatic, always changing, and sometimes inspiring... but I love my life. I really do. :)
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