My heart bleeds for Ray LaMontagne.
Talk about sex appeal.... Meow.
Tuesday, November 24, 2009
Tuesday, November 17, 2009
The Void
So Jessica, my roommate, and I came up with this really cool theory that we titled "The Void". It's all based around different levels of feeling, awareness, conciousness... You know, all that jazz. Perhaps I'd attempt to explain further if I thought I could. But I can't, so I won't.
Anywho, I feel as though I'm slipping beneath the line of equilibrium, today, maybe even just recently in general. In fact, I've been listening to Tegan and Sara's "Where Does the Good Go?" over and over again -- they just seem to get it. I think I need to go to the temple, tonight. Hopefully that will be enough to clear my mind? Yeah. :)
Interestingly enough, although I've been in a HUGE panic over the near future, recently, I don't feel stressed about it, today -- well, AS stressed, at least. I'm in some sort of pheromone... cloud/haze. It's intense; if I were you, I wouldn't ask.
Anywho, I feel as though I'm slipping beneath the line of equilibrium, today, maybe even just recently in general. In fact, I've been listening to Tegan and Sara's "Where Does the Good Go?" over and over again -- they just seem to get it. I think I need to go to the temple, tonight. Hopefully that will be enough to clear my mind? Yeah. :)
Interestingly enough, although I've been in a HUGE panic over the near future, recently, I don't feel stressed about it, today -- well, AS stressed, at least. I'm in some sort of pheromone... cloud/haze. It's intense; if I were you, I wouldn't ask.
Thursday, November 5, 2009
Obsessions... Obsessions, Obsessions, Obsessions.
Sooo... Like always, I'm obsessing over my credits -- taken and yet to come. Here's the plan that I've figured out for myself, so far:
Already Taken:
High School - 9
Year 1 (UVU) - 32
Year 2, semester 1 (UVU) - 14
Upcoming:
Year 2, semester 2 (UVU) - 14
Summer - 12
Year 3 (UVU) - 30
Summer - 11
GRADUATION.
Weird, huh? I was looking at the credits I have right now, and I figured out... I could graduate with my AA at the end of this semester... if it wouldn't totally screw up my credit eval. Ha! I guess I really am making a dent in things, hmm? It's making me sick to my stomach, though, with everything I have yet to do.. I feel so inadequate when it comes to the English spectrum of things.
Anywho, I'm filling out my admissions application to the Integrated Studies program, as I write!! I'll start in on those credits, next... : This next year, year and a half will be filled with ENGL and IS classes... Woo! Almost DONE! Buh-bye General Ed credits!!!! Haaaaaaaaa! Biggest relief out of all of this. :)
Already Taken:
High School - 9
Year 1 (UVU) - 32
Year 2, semester 1 (UVU) - 14
Upcoming:
Year 2, semester 2 (UVU) - 14
Summer - 12
Year 3 (UVU) - 30
Summer - 11
GRADUATION.
Weird, huh? I was looking at the credits I have right now, and I figured out... I could graduate with my AA at the end of this semester... if it wouldn't totally screw up my credit eval. Ha! I guess I really am making a dent in things, hmm? It's making me sick to my stomach, though, with everything I have yet to do.. I feel so inadequate when it comes to the English spectrum of things.
Anywho, I'm filling out my admissions application to the Integrated Studies program, as I write!! I'll start in on those credits, next... : This next year, year and a half will be filled with ENGL and IS classes... Woo! Almost DONE! Buh-bye General Ed credits!!!! Haaaaaaaaa! Biggest relief out of all of this. :)
Wednesday, November 4, 2009
bOy CrAzY?!
Bahahaha, first and foremost, if you missed the title, go back and read it again. Again! Yeah, the capitalization was done on purpose... purposefully obnoxious. How you like them apples?!
I've been feeling like this little boy-crazed twit, recently, and it just dawned on me -- I work in a high school full of boy-crazed twits!!!! These girls, they're starting to rub off on me. And/or it's just the mood I'm in, today.
Anywho, I have restless legs like you wouldn't believe, today, and usually, when this happens, I also begin to feel really restless/distraught with everything else in my life. So I'm blogging; obviously this seems to be my copping method.
So now that you've been warned that I'm in some sort of funk, know that you're advancing through this post with a FULL KNOWLEDGE that this might not be the most positive of positives. It's just what it is. Mmmmk? Mmmmk.
Phew.
I had such an amazing dream, last night. So good, in fact, that I decided to skip out on my first two morning classes because I didn't want it to end. Needless to say, I woke up only to continue floating in the clouds -- which could have contributed to this funk that I'm in.
My friend Katie's getting engaged, any day now, and it's slowly killing me inside... Not that she's going to forever be sealed to her best friend for time and all eternity and be ridiculously happy in life, but because it's making ME want to be MARRIED!!!!! Bah!! What IS this?! Phhh.
Anywho, marriage and babies... Yeah, both have been on my mind, quite a bit, recently. I guess I'm just moving into that phase of my life where God is making me realize that someday, I have to grow up. And have that. Be that. Pretty sure he's trying to keep the anxiety level under control, haha. Good luck.
I've found that more and more, with the passing of time, that I AM a girl! What the... Hahaha, I guess this is a blog of realizations, today. :) Seriously though, I'm such a girl. I'm all soft and mushy, now. I get all emotional and sentimental and CRY! A LOT!! And I tend (not that this is a feminine quality) to allow people to walk over me -- more. Recently, though, I've decided to cut that part of myself out, become stronger willed, maybe? Anywho, I went through a couple of my inboxs and just deleted old, useless messages from people that... well, aren't really what I need in my life; how about that? It feels good! I'm moving on, getting out of old ruts, and seriously applying what they teach in "He's Just Not That Into You"! :) That movie -- soooo good. So right. So good. Moral of the story: I've really taken to heart the whole "if you want to be with me/my friend/apart of my life, you'll make it happen" motto. And, besides todays weirdness, it's been a huge relief. Honesty just hasn't ever felt so good. :)
That's the other thing -- I'm being more honest with people; not just honest, but blunt, like I used to be. I miss that. I hate sugar-coating so that someone doesn't walk away and cry once they're out of sight. Obviously I'm not going to be heartless, but sometimes... the truth just needs to come out. And from here on out, I'm going to be that person that brings it out, again.
Well, I'm done with work, now, (yes, this is how I spend it) so I'm going to head. The Schwinzer has an in-between-er "Ben Day" planned -- she still needs to write him a 25 page letter; I guess I'm helping.
Love and peace to all of you!
Kelci
I've been feeling like this little boy-crazed twit, recently, and it just dawned on me -- I work in a high school full of boy-crazed twits!!!! These girls, they're starting to rub off on me. And/or it's just the mood I'm in, today.
Anywho, I have restless legs like you wouldn't believe, today, and usually, when this happens, I also begin to feel really restless/distraught with everything else in my life. So I'm blogging; obviously this seems to be my copping method.
So now that you've been warned that I'm in some sort of funk, know that you're advancing through this post with a FULL KNOWLEDGE that this might not be the most positive of positives. It's just what it is. Mmmmk? Mmmmk.
Phew.
I had such an amazing dream, last night. So good, in fact, that I decided to skip out on my first two morning classes because I didn't want it to end. Needless to say, I woke up only to continue floating in the clouds -- which could have contributed to this funk that I'm in.
My friend Katie's getting engaged, any day now, and it's slowly killing me inside... Not that she's going to forever be sealed to her best friend for time and all eternity and be ridiculously happy in life, but because it's making ME want to be MARRIED!!!!! Bah!! What IS this?! Phhh.
Anywho, marriage and babies... Yeah, both have been on my mind, quite a bit, recently. I guess I'm just moving into that phase of my life where God is making me realize that someday, I have to grow up. And have that. Be that. Pretty sure he's trying to keep the anxiety level under control, haha. Good luck.
I've found that more and more, with the passing of time, that I AM a girl! What the... Hahaha, I guess this is a blog of realizations, today. :) Seriously though, I'm such a girl. I'm all soft and mushy, now. I get all emotional and sentimental and CRY! A LOT!! And I tend (not that this is a feminine quality) to allow people to walk over me -- more. Recently, though, I've decided to cut that part of myself out, become stronger willed, maybe? Anywho, I went through a couple of my inboxs and just deleted old, useless messages from people that... well, aren't really what I need in my life; how about that? It feels good! I'm moving on, getting out of old ruts, and seriously applying what they teach in "He's Just Not That Into You"! :) That movie -- soooo good. So right. So good. Moral of the story: I've really taken to heart the whole "if you want to be with me/my friend/apart of my life, you'll make it happen" motto. And, besides todays weirdness, it's been a huge relief. Honesty just hasn't ever felt so good. :)
That's the other thing -- I'm being more honest with people; not just honest, but blunt, like I used to be. I miss that. I hate sugar-coating so that someone doesn't walk away and cry once they're out of sight. Obviously I'm not going to be heartless, but sometimes... the truth just needs to come out. And from here on out, I'm going to be that person that brings it out, again.
Well, I'm done with work, now, (yes, this is how I spend it) so I'm going to head. The Schwinzer has an in-between-er "Ben Day" planned -- she still needs to write him a 25 page letter; I guess I'm helping.
Love and peace to all of you!
Kelci
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